An explanation for the Absence

I know, I'm a terrible person.  I have learned, over the last 27 years to accept this fact.  I have made peace with my own horribleness, and make no apologies for my long absence.  I will however offer you (as in you three people who occasionally read this) an explanation.  Just before I was going to post something the second week of December, I found out something.  I found out something huge. And by "huge" I mean ginormous, gargantuan, of such immense scale that I cannot in fact quantify it in a single sentence, or even twenty thousand. 

I am pregnant.

Despite all efforts to the contrary, I am now expecting a child late August, early September.  It's still very early, and things could happen.  The chance of miscarriage at this point is still up around 20-25 percent.  Nonetheless, I have not posted anything because I have had a one track mind.  Everything has changed.  My goals, and my hopes, well they are still there, my plans though?  Torn to shreds.  And I didn't want to say anything here until after we had told our families, which we did, while visiting them all in Edmonton over New Year's.

I'll be honest, I am petrified.  I am also though very excited, very being the operative word there.  This is a good thing, it's an absolute blessing, and already I feel so much for Lou (Little One in my Uterus.)  It's frightening to think though that Eric and I are having a child.  He's still in Law School.  I am going to need to go back to school to take a couple of courses a semester a year after they are born to complete my own program.  I still want to study theology, but now that's more an eventually.  Did I mention my husband is still in Law School???   Did I mention I am still in school???

On a positive note: Think of all the delightful things I now get to knit!